Casted as a side character
Everyone has their own story spinning in life. We might be sharing the same time on this planet. But, we each have a story of our own to tell. Is it not interesting to think how each one of us are living a tale centered around us?
“Sonder”. It is a beautiful word that translates to realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own. Just to think that each one of us is living a story in which each of us plays the lead role, is simply astounding!
But sometimes in life, we find ourselves lost in the flow. Situation becomes so overwhelming that we lose control. We start to see ourselves as insignificant. As a matter of fact, there might come a time when you see yourself more like a side character in your own life, rather than the protagonist. It is hard to put into words the emotions that run through you when you feel this way.
Justice cannot be done in trying to explain how badly one feels when they are let down by their own self. Being looked down upon by others is one thing. But it is a new low when you feel you have let yourself down. Knowing you have to get better but not being able to do anything about it, is suffocating.
The burden of facing yourself every single day, the will it takes to see yourself cast aside in life every day you wake up, is not an easy thing to do. Turning life around and taking the reigns of your story will seem like a herculean task, not worth pursuing.
One thing that will make your life easier during these times is acceptance. Accepting that you have fallen down is the first strong step in the road towards improvement. Living in denial pushes you off the driving seat even further. Once you accept, the process gets a lot less hard.
It is not possible to raise and take control of everything that has gone wrong, overnight. Getting better is a series of baby-steps. Focus on all that is good, and ignore all that makes you lose hope. You make your life better and worth living, one step at a time, one day at a time.
Do not start trying to change everything at once. Start small, and persevere. Patience and grit are things that will take you far. Celebrate every small success. And do not fret over failures. They are just stepping stones for your success tomorrow. Focus your mind on things you want to do. Force the negative thoughts out of your brain.
It is a beautiful journey when you turn your life around and emerge out contently. You would not savour the happiness in life, if not for the dark times you have endured. For anyone who is feeling like a side-character in their own life right now, I hope you do not lose your faith. Hold strong and emerge the hero you are meant to be of your own life! :)
